complete and total randomness...
okay, so i am sitting here on an october sunday night watching titanic on abc family, while at the same time i've got my ear buds in and watching hipster kids on youtube rub the fact that they are 15 and have more fame, influence, and electronic devices than i do.
phoenix and tyler are supposed to be asleep now, since it is 10:18 at night and they have school tomorrow. BUT, they aren't! and elijah should be in bed too, but he isn't either. instead, he is begging for one of the fudge filled chocolate chocolate chip cookies that i am shoving into my mouth at record speed. i regret each one as i sit here in my ridiculously tight t-shirt, and in the back of mind i tell myself i am going to make changes starting tomorrow.
yeah, i told myself the same thing yesterday.
and the day before that.
and the day before that.
and the day...
i see where this is going.
apparently, i should be running for office because i am an awesome liar!
alright now, let's get real! i seriously need to get myself in check and my priorities straight. I MUST LOSE WEIGHT!
i've lost weight before but for some reason i am struggling to find motivation to exercise and keeping myself in line when it comes to eating.
i don't like to make excuses, but eating from a box, can or package and slathered with some kind of sauce is so much tastier, more convenient, and less expensive than eating healthy. and dr. pepper tastes oh-so-good! i hate that i am publicly whining about my weight instead of getting out there and actually doing something about it. it's easier to tell someone else to eat a carrot than it is to tell myself. have you tasted one of those things plain?
i am pretty sure i need to start up my fat butt friday series again, but this time make it more about me rather than trying to be a support for everyone else. i think if i really lay it all out there and fully commit to admitting to the world that i am a failure, i will get sick of looking like a loser and make some changes.
thanks for listening to me be a cry baby! i'm going to go eat a twinkie now.
HA! just kidding! or am i?
i guess you will find out friday.
